Girl Boss Magic! with Niky from Magic Paratus- PINNED Podcast: Episode 27

Joining in from the "Isla de Encanto" also known as Puerto Rico - we Niky (@magicaparatus) join in as we chat about mental health during Covid, Disney, Magic, & MORE!  This episode really opened my eyes to issues that I have never experienced and I hope you also take the time to listen and open your mind to them. 

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Niky, millenial, proud french afrolatina. Married for 15 years, epidemiologist, quirky, lover of everything spooky, I don’t watch demonic movies, cult survivor, defender of the LGBTQ+ community. Part time nomad living in Aguadilla PR, my heart’s home is Buffalo NY, Disney and Universal fanatic. Girl boss, studied art, psychology and then became a Doctor in epidemiology, working as a marketing specialist for the military. Active traveler, mom of a teenager. 

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Hello, and welcome to episode number 27 of the PINNED podcast. I'm your host Pinup Miami and here's the PINNED podcast we talk about modern topics with a vintage flair. If it is your first time listening and thank you for clicking on this podcast, I hope that you stay and subscribe. And if you're coming back, welcome. It's such a pleasure to have you back. And thank you so much for listening in. Make sure that you follow the pin podcast on Instagram at the pin podcast official or on my personal brand of Pinup Miami. And if you have any questions, any issues any topics you want to cover or want to be a guest on the podcast, please send me a text to 183348 pinup and I will get right back to you. Now today's episode is brought to us by Phil Luna millenary she does custom head pieces that are vintage inspired. her Instagram is I feel Luna Miami she's an artist based in Miami. She does bright artwork, earrings, bangles purses, all hand painted, and head pieces not to make it yours. Make it yours today is for the guests that we have today. But make sure to check out her Instagram at Luna millenary. And she nlb on the description down below. She even does make handmade like orders custom orders. for Halloween, she created a King Kong inspired like art deco headpiece that I work for one of my costumes, and it was amazing. And it even has little airplanes that flew around if you move your head. So make sure to check her out. I have the her link down below. And then today, our guest is very special and also a Disney fan of yours if you're listening to us on YouTube or watching us on YouTube. Her name is Nikki, you can find me on Instagram magic. Paradis. How did you get that name? Oh.

Niky: 2:01

Well, you know, when when you decide to be a blogger, and you're like, I need a name that will bring people here. So that was the magic part. And then I'm a huge Gilmore Girls fan. And it's amazing, and you can start anytime now. It's on Netflix. And they have a go I don't. Okay, so boilers. There's a secret society and is called in. Well, actually, the secret society, I won't tell you the name. Okay. But they have a saying in that in that secret society. And it's in Omnia para tus, which means ready for anything. So paratus is a loving word, word. And it means like ready always, like always ready. So magic. Like always magic is what I want to say kind of. But it's been difficult for some people, they know that I'm a Harry Potter fan. So sometimes they say apparatus, like, like a bell or something like that. Or and then you know, it got confused. So I've been with it for two years now. And I don't feel that I should change it because it's part of my my brand and my personality. But sometimes I'm like, I should have chosen something easier. You know. So that's one of the tips that I always tell people when they asked me when you have a name it has to be simple. It has to be something that people will remember right away. So that's it. I remember your name I just was curious because I thought it was maybe because you you you also you also have a podcast. You also might hear and I thought like your name was badass boost sounds like my Oh. First This came first but is the podcast. So love Yeah, is because of magic Paradis. So everything about magic, like, um, since like when I started socializing with other woman, this is like a new thing. Not new new, but you know, when I got out of my shell of being afraid of having girlfriends, you know, the woman always said that I was like magical. That was like a thing that they would tell me that I was so magical or like, and it was not to tell me that I was a freak.

Unknown: 4:44

Most of the time, you know, like I was weird or different. So they said you that you're magical. So that's why I took the magic and then because I wanted my pockets to be in Spanish then I did the mahiya part but I think magic Mr. Here, that word is so strong, and you can use it in so many ways that I think that's why I love it on me. You know, especially if they describe me like that magical. Disney is the most magical place. So magic and you and that's, and I love it because you love Disney as well. Yes. So tell me about your experience. Being a girl boss, we about your experience that you had when you had your business, uh, when, like when you felt like you were a girl boss and what it means to you. So I think when we're little girls, they, like you never see like, you'll never saw a woman being in that position of giving orders and being their own boss, and doing amazing things without having to, to give explanations to other people. And I think it came with my, it started with my mom. So my mom has her her own business since she was in her 20s in the beach, and it was started as a hot dog car. So she used to sell hot dogs in the beach. And when I was 1415, she told me, you want to make money, come work with me, you know, and people in my school, I was in high school at that age because I was like, at dance. So somebody figured out that I was that I was selling hotdogs, so they started calling me later. And that embarrassed me so much. You know, it was it wasn't something glamorous or anything. So I I like lied. Well, I did two things, I stopped working with my mom for a little bit because I was embarrassed. And to my husband now when he was my my friend. I told him that I worked at Subway. Because in my head for me working at Subway was better than than being like a hotdog seller in and that was my first experience as a girl Boss, I would say looking at my mom and she making it by herself right now. She's not only she still have that business, but she doesn't sell hotdogs anymore. She sells like a bunch of things. She got a cafeteria down. And now she has like real estate, like a bunch of real estate and in different parts. She got the like she bought a 2020 car, cash, you know, for from something that I was embarrassed of, you know? And then I figure out okay, so if my mom did it, then I'm gonna do a little business too. So I can start doing that. But I think the girl bossing you know, like, being a girl boss is more of a state of mine, you know, because you can be a girl boss and still work in a corporation. It doesn't have to be like a small business owner. And also you can be like a mom and be a girl boss, too. So that was something that I always want to people you know, people don't you don't have to be like a entrepreneur. It's not it's not attached. You can be any type of woman and still be a girl boss in your field, like in your area. So it has different definitions, I would say right, like you you have. Yeah, you have your your balance your mom you work, but you also like having fun. Yes. Right. is super important with the child. side. No, I need Yeah, it's so sad when people think that you're doing child things because you like this knee or because you go to universal rights. And people even say, oh, you're wasting your money traveling to Disney all the time. But I do travel to other parts of the world. Like every year I choose a place to go this year was going to be Tokyo and California, which both of them were canceled for me because of the pandemic. Yeah, I have my money all set up. And they have my money like my money is there in credit. So I will go, but yeah, but it's so sad that people like I will just today I think I was realizing that um, some people are just thinking that they'd have to do this a certain way to be an adult. And it's, it's not. It's not that way you make your own way, the way that you want to be an adult and you are an adult, because you have the age, you have the responsibility. So I know there's some people, there are some cases of people that don't grow up kind of in, they still live off of their mothers or their parents or whatever. But that's because of their personality. It doesn't it's not because they go to this thing that doesn't make you an adult, automatically. Because I know a lot of people they have their own business, the they have families, they have husbands, they have degrees, and they still go to Disney. Even with me, people are always like, Oh, you need to be an adult don't wear these bright colors. Like I sometimes I get that. My hair is too yellow, even my own family, they'll be like, Hi. I'm like, I still I still I bought my own house, I pay my own bills. I'm an adult, but I could I could just like you said, I could just live how I like there's no handbook to tell us what to do. And another thing if you look at the generations to what people what what you thought, like, they compare a lot, The Golden Girls that they were supposed to be 50 cent 60 woman and you compare that to the 50s woman right now. JLo his stuff? Is like JLo wants the Barney cheese 50 so it's like, Um, no, I want to be that kind of thing. But people wanted you to even us when we look at our parents, and they were 30 years old or whatever. We're like, oh, you're old. You cannot wear boots, you cannot do short skirt. And that was generational, you know, things that we thought we should do. But we don't have to. We don't have we can set whatever. We want to dress whatever we want to do and set your own standards for your life, I think. And you also did a derby. Yes, I still will we still do it. The last time that I did. It was in March this year, the Bible because we did the revival, but then the pandemic happened like two weeks after. So we met up May, March 1, before the pandemic and we had a bunch of new girls that were gonna start doing it with us. But it's funny, because the first time that I did, it was 10 years ago, the first time so we were celebrating our 10 year anniversary, and then the pandemic happened. So we could, we cannot do that. But Derby is another way to be a girl boss. Like you feel so powerful in you that that's when I learned to cohabitate with another woman without without being afraid, or jealous or it was like a thing that people everybody was growing and everybody wanted to grow. Like, together it wasn't like a thing that they weren't you know, sometimes women don't like other woman to be prettier in a way and that happens all the time. Like you you always want to be the face of the group or or those are the things that Patrick he told us you know that you always have to be the prettiest of everyone in the group and don't don't tell your your girlfriends who you like don't bring your girlfriends to your house when your boyfriend is there your husband is there because they might take him away. And they put us against each other. So Derby took that away. Derby I had my poor husband sometimes I had like 25 girls in my house. In short shorts, when I say tortured, it was like but because that's the way I dress to play it was more comfortable for for moving for running so that I recommend Derby to any woman at any age. Definitely. I'm scared of it because it's like I went to I've only gone to one Derby game. And I've heard Derby from Judy justice up in Pennsylvania. But when I saw it, I felt like everyone was just hitting each other. Did it hurt in my head? Yes, that's what we do. But when you do actual Derby, you learn how to hit safely. It's not That you're randomly hitting people for no reason. There's rules. And there's way to do it safely and for now sometimes, and I will tell you, sometimes people will, from other teams and whatever, they will hit you on purpose and hurt you and that has happened. But we don't like that. It's not it's something that's frowned upon so but I do recommend you can just be like a fan, a helper, there's a lot of people that help in the in the leaks, doing plays, helping in the merge table, that inclusion that you that you help them out, it will get you into that community. And it's something else really, you can travel the world. And you can always find a friend in another Derby girl. Like nothing like instant is amazing. More Derby games? I need to go to more Derby games. Yes. So what before this pandemic, you were also going to school and you graduated? Yes. I, I graduated 2019. And I was supposed to start, you know, like an epidemiologist, which is weird, because I'm not working as an epidemiologist, but what the world needs is more of an immunologist, which is people that will, you know, help with this pandemic, in communities and in the hospitals to teach people how to behave, actually, you know, with the epidemiologist work in the public health department, and they usually help the doctors, the nurses, and staff to recognize the signs to prevent. So it's mostly prevention, although my type of epidemiology that I chose is mental health. So mine is not as necessary. Here ahead, in this, you know, because they're much more focused on on vaccines and treatment and people that will do the drugs to, to get a better the COVID-19. But I think that there's a, there's a need for for, for public mental health. In this era, people are just in their house going through things they cannot go out, they can even this knee is one one way that you, you know, like you, your mind, you let your mind be free and be happy for a second and some people are not going to Disney anymore. And that was their, their therapy. So I think public health is super necessary at this time, you know, that we're living? It's crazy. I you brought that up, because I've noticed a lot of people that I follow online or even when you go to talk to family, everyone's talking about some mental issue like on going crazy at home, or, you know, cabin fever. Um, is there like any anything you found the fact that you could do at home? Maybe since you have experienced that you could do at home to make you feel better? Is there something you could do or chatting online? Or does that make things worse? Well, uh, things that I seen people, it all depends because all different people, you know, people have different illnesses like mental ill, if it's mental illness, or if they have like, if they have panic attacks or anxiety due to this pandemic, which might not be a chronic disease, you know, illness because it's just happening because of the pandemic. So we have people that already had the illness that is bringing the illness with them through the pandemic, and there's people that are developing this, this illnesses and this behaviors due to the pandemic. So, I see a lot of anxiety, that that can be, but each person works different. So it's a lot of listening to your own body, understanding what you're going through, always talk to people, you know, like, talk to friends or family about it. There's a lot of telemedicine that you can do online, with psychologists with psychiatrists and even hotlines of people that is just like a peer to peer you know, like, I Another person that can understand you and those are, there's a lot of free lines that you can call just to say, hey, today, I don't know, chason, which is cool. But I think a lot of the anxiety is because it's uncertain what we're living. So it's pretty normal that we feel even people that are happy, most of them, like, I consider myself a really stable first, like, I'm pretty sure I'm mostly happy all the time. And people tell me that, you know, it's not that I'm happy with everybody, but I'm like, a happy person. And I have balance. I have Val depression, you know, like, I have felt down, like, Oh, I don't feel good. And then that's why I started traveling again, in September 30. I was like, I think I'm gonna travel because I don't feel good here. And I'm gonna do everything that I can to travel safety with, with my 95 with with my face, chill my bottle of alcohol. And I travel and I feel good. And I did my test when I went and came back, you know. And I still did, I'm still negative, I travel four times this year, three times to Florida and one one time to Boston. And, but I was like, super, super, super safe, I think inside what i think you know, but it could happen to anyone. And it could happen in the supermarket too. So that's why everybody's like, anxious, because they don't know. And then so that, another thing that you have to consider is that people are putting in doubt that it doesn't exist. So they are telling you that this doesn't exist, and you are doing all of this stuff to keep safe for something that doesn't exist, that will make you like mad at the world. You know, like, this doesn't even exist, and they they have me here in my house, I want to go out I want to make money. And then financial problems, too. That's why I say you have to check on all your friends, even the strong ones, even the rich ones, the ones that you think are rich and are good financially, you don't know what's going on now. So always this is like a rule check on your friends and your family. Check all the strong people. That's true. And people are being like, going back to what you said about people thinking that it's fake and then and not doing enough or not even the minimum, like at my job. I worked at a warehouse during the day. And the boss there. He didn't tell anybody that his daughter had COVID I only overheard it in a conversation and he got upset when I asked him to leave to go to get tested because I told them you don't get you don't pay me enough to get health insurance. So I can't afford to get sick. And he just laughed it off saying oh Jenna Barry are just so worried This is fake. And then even today, for example, I got an argument because I told them Can you please put on your mask I have mine on the whole time but I like for you to put it on. Because I you don't feel comfortable that you still have dinner with your daughter that has COVID and he just laughs it off. And for me, you know, I get anxiety at work because I don't feel comfortable working there. So then my job gets a little hectic. So I could see how that could affect if you're like going out a lot that's why I don't go out a lot. So I live in a community like a close community. And they think this is like a bubble. They actually in a bubble and nothing happens in here. So they are living their life as nothing is happening outside. What I can tell you is they mostly stay inside here so they don't go up that much. is a military community. But I forgot to say that you're in Puerto Rico Yes, everyone Yeah, I live in a woody Yeah. Oh my god. I already said where that I live in so you know people you're doing a wrong sorry, I don't care. Anyway. Yeah, I live in a secluded area. So there's not much people here. There's not much Metro politan stuff. So it's like a rural area. But anyways, this people are like Crazy, they do whatever they want. They're together, they you don't use mouse, they go to the pool, they go to the gym, they go, like, they live their life, as whatever they're doing parties and everything. And I'm scared because I'm always in what I'm in my house most of the time, or I go to my family's house, but my son, he's 14, he likes to be in the community, like with his friends. And the problem with this disease is that whatever your friend is doing, is something that could happen to you. So like you said, Your boss, if his daughter, even though she's not in the warehouse, have COVID It's like she's in the warehouse, because you don't know if he's carrying it. So that's the thing with my son, um, I always tell him, you don't know if you're gonna bring that in the house because of your friend, having a mom or dad or another friend that has it. So I did a test for my son a couple weeks ago, and he, he came negative for both the the illness, you know, like the virus and the antibodies, and the antibodies, none of us have it, but then you have to do it again. The problem is, we don't have enough testing. You know, like, it's super difficult to get it if you don't have a good health care plan, you have to pay so and then you have to do it today, and then have a tour. So I was lucky, it was free. At least in my county. It's free. So I was able to go whenever I want. I just need to make an appointment. That's amazing. Yeah. And I know CBS, the farmer pharmacy sorry, not sponsored and invited sorry, not sponsor. They have it for free. And if you don't have a health care plan, then they will charge the the state. Oh, okay. Yeah, that's good to know if you need an appointment to So do you have to do a like, week or more in advance because it gets full. But that's what I was doing. When I went to Florida. I will do mine here. And then the other one in the pharmacy is to go back to I'm gonna say this wrong and video pitches. Yeah. What kind of program like are you most proud of that you want to help the most? Yeah. So when when I started, the first thing that happened to me, which was why I changed from medicine to public health in them in medicine school was that my son got a black eye. From a seventh grader. He was in fifth grade, and a seventh grader hit him and made a black eyes. So I wanted to focus on teenagers, right, and like, teenage. And then when I started doing that, I created something that was called the sidewalk project, which is trademarked. And and it's about teaching kids in the sidewalk, right. So I it was like teaching them about LGBT communities about anti bullying is an anti bullying program. So it was about that, but through games and bringing special people into the sidewalk while they wait for the bus. So what? You catch him right there? Yeah, yeah, because they have that free time. And that's how my son got the black guy. So when I started going into that into teenagers, I noticed that there was a health inequality in the LGBT community. Because at that point, when you're a teenager is when you're kind of figure like, activating sexually and whatever. So I started looking into what happens when these kids that don't know a lot about about sexuality are gay, you know, like, they figure out okay, I'm gay. What happened to what happens to them after that, because we don't teach, like sexual sexuality. In terms of LGBT community, we only do a heterosexual sexual health class. So without having sexual health for LGBT communities, you're creating And inequality there. And then if you put the transgender people in that too, because sometimes you figure out that you're gay, but sometimes you're like, Oh, I'm not gay, I'm transgender, but they don't, if you don't teach them if you don't normalize, that people don't understand what it means. So that was another thing. And so my field that I like the most is LGBT community and teenage years, because there's so much inequality there that we need to work on. And for the posts, when when the, when the post shooting happened, I was called in, I lived in Tampa, so I was called in to do a grief counseling. So that was for for families that lost people in post. And obviously, most of them were gay or, or gay parents, a friends that were there, but I noticed that people were there, but they didn't really know that their kids were gay, or they haven't seen their kids for 10 years, because they throw them out. But then they went there, you know, to the grief counseling because they did lost a kid even though they didn't reconnect, or they didn't have the chance to reconnect. So that's another program that I started working on, it does, hopefully the one that I'm gonna bring live once outside, which is helping people, families reconnect after the, the disconnect, due to the paint, mostly the parents throwing out their, their teenage kids, you know, so it's like, really special to me to to help on that, because you wouldn't know that it happens. And it's a grieving process for both the kid and apparently, I find this so intriguing, because I, I never went through that. So hearing it from you, it really gives me like, really an open eye of like the other side, I cope, what somebody else is going through, and these aren't even know needed, and see how this would be necessary and really helpful because there's no resources again, like, at least looking into the mainstream, or what I've seen through life, I've never seen a program like that or a topic like that a school I I didn't even think about sex ed, including things like that either. And you're right, it has to do all about education. Because if not, it's like me like I never say that I know everything. Like I learned something new about all my every guest I have and something new about life and just listening to this, it really makes me think about the upon your friends, because you never know what they're going through. Just like you're gonna check up on these kids to like, because you don't know what they're going through, especially the shooting, I didn't even think about, you know, whatever, they never even came out to their parents and then they find out about that. It just leads you to a whole that's a whole different like another topic on top of a big topic and oh it's happening independent make to win when you are inside quarantine with this people that you're there, your parents and whatever, but you are not 100% with them. And then you're like, Okay, so I want to invite a friend, I cannot I want to dress up for a show because I'm a drag queen, but they don't know. So I cannot do it in my house. I want to watch this show that I like but they're always here so I can watch it. So there's a lot of people that are in the closet, but really, really, really in the closet now because they cannot go out. So they kind of have two choices live like a half live doing quarantine and not show that part or come out during quarantine. So I have seen a lot of tic tocs and I know you're a fan because we're an awesome tip talker. Ah, that and I have seen a lot of people call me now during the warranty too. But is, is something if we have awareness, like straight people like us, you know, and you become our eyes, but also educate yourself. You know what's going to happen that when you get that cousin or a kid if you if you like, for example, I don't know my kid might be gay, you know, or I get another kid and escape. If you already had the occasion when you were a teenagers. As an adult you won't find it that weird. You don't find it difficult. You don't find it different because you already have that occasion. It's not strange Normal. And if we create that normal seat it and that's the the health equality that we need. It's not only in health, I talk about health, because that's the part that I that I think is important, but it comes to a lot. It's about the law, the way that if you're gay, you don't get to, to share the marriage sometimes. And then the health plan in both of you work and one of you doesn't have a health plan because you're gay, you cannot have the health plan. I go, I graduated from a university that gave me a discount because my husband was in the military, but it was because there was a woman, if I was a man, even though I was married to a military person, they won't give me the discount. Oh, wow. They have the family values course. And they don't want to give the discount to gay couples. Actually, I don't think you can go to that school if you're gay. But we're not talking about that. And my my husband always says like, it's weird that you went to that school and I'm like, Whoa, I got a doctor anyways, really, she? And to make it worse, I'm going to help the gates. So and you'll change the way the school things hopefully in long run? No. Oh, I don't think so. It's really, really, really bad. It's really bad. But that degree is the degree I got it for cheap. And I'm gonna do with that whatever I want. Anyway, so the only problem that I see is in the future if I want to go to with a nonprofit corporation, and then they see my degree being from that particular University, they might do we trust you when they don't want us, but then I will be like, I'm a ninja. Yes. You proven by all your experience in helping people in the community, because not only do you help people with these programs that you're planning, but you also help people through your Instagram, you have your ninja on your Instagram tivity and no sec, your stories are always very positive. And I love the detail in them. I hope I hope that I do bring positive positivity but not toxic positivity. Like right now. Um, you know, I'm going through my dog, we have to put him down was super sad. It was just today. And I had to chair one of my stories today. And what I what I said was, I'm super sad, I cried. I have cried a bunch of times. But my my dog only brought me happiness. So that's what I want to commemorate with him or about him. So today, I'm going to show you something that is happy. Even though I'm sad. It doesn't take away the sap. And that's that's one of the things you cannot be like, toxic positive, you know, like, you have to have a balance. Sometimes you will be sad that things happen to you. We are not perfect, but we can always look at the good side of life because we have, we have a lot of things to be grateful compared to to other people. So I'm glad Like I said, I lost him today, but I had him for 16 years. 16 amazing years. So why would I be sad about that? That's a great way of looking at it. So well, I have a couple of questions from the listeners. They sent it to me on Instagram. Are you ready, though? Oh. Really? Simple. And what is your favorite Disney park? Okay, um, I feel like I answered this before. I'm like favorite Disney park, for decorations is Magic Kingdom and also because of the parties. I love the parties like the Halloween Party and the Christmas party. And I have never gone to a villain, the villains party but I want to go so I would say Magic Kingdom and decorations. But I like all the parts like I like Animal Kingdom to eat. I like Epcot to get drunk. I say that and what's the other part? Oh my god maybe I don't like that part. Oh Hollywood studio. Actually, I I that's the least not favorite not least favorite but the least that I got the one that I go to least i would say i don't want to go to changes because Hollywood Studios is so random now you got Star Wars where you either go there for Star Wars Toy Story and then you got a Hollywood but then it has Aerosmith. I don't know. supersystem Yeah, it's it happened with dapper Day this year. Like you wouldn't, you wouldn't see people because if they went that way, you went the other way. Gone. Because by that time that they go the other you don't see them. It's not an easy part. And I wanted to see the snowman that they have by the store. I never seen I've seen him once. And I've been to that part. Like 100 times. I only seen him what because I haven't. I can't find them. I don't I never seen you see. There's no. You don't know about this? No, man. No, no. No, you have a negative. Yeah, there's a snowman is super cute. It's like what is this? I never been there during Christmas. You'll know it's a Christmas for the whole year. Oh, and there's a snowman that whole year? I got to see them. I'm gonna look it up on online. What is your food dapper day experience? What is your favorite deputy experience? Being with my friends? I think well dressing up of course, because you like figure it out from months and you're like, Oh, I find this in the file. You know, like you get super excited or making stuff or, or, or ordering on Amazon today the day before because you need something. It's like different experiences. Or either you create something you find something in the thrift shop or or you are like an Amazon person. So I'm kind of through a little bit of each. So I like the part that when I'm making stuff and creating the outfit, but seeing my friends and hanging out with people that you know that you're gonna find. So we missed you this year a lot. But not that often. Your green one used to be drift thrifted Yes. And others. It is gory. It was gorgeous. And they didn't even know what they had. I was like, Oh, this is for me. That's always good when you find something I know. Let's see. How was Disney during COVID. Okay, so this knee. I loved it. Um, for now, because first of all will I cancel You know, when they send for the annual passholder they send if you wanted to cancel your your path, you could cancel it. So I did that. I cancelled because I didn't have any hope that I was going to Disney. I didn't like what I was seeing in people. But then I was like, Okay, I'm gonna travel let me call them. So I called them and they allow me to renew my my pass, which was amazing. They're not selling any annual pass right now. And the days that I when I went up Friday to Magic Kingdom, it was good. I had fun. I ate I sat down. You do take amazing castle photos because they don't let you take your mask off. So before not time, they're not standing there as much. And there was no there was no crowd that day that I went and it was a Friday. But the things that I love the most were their rights, especially the shows that you sit down. I went to animal kingdom. I sat down in his stuff to be a bug. I had like protection here protection here. Chip chip. Nobody touched me. No, you know, like I couldn't nobody sat by me if you were a party of one you will get the whole crew for you. So that was like a dream come true. And I hope they keep that forever. Because they were not they were not limiting the seats. It was just that you you were like in a fiberglass everywhere. So I think they should keep that and people don't have to like touch each other and it's clear it doesn't do anything. And, but everything else was good. Now, if you see the crowds because I went in for dapper day, the next day, it was a lot like people are starting to come in. And for the photos that I've seen from the photos that I've seen, it's getting crowded and people, mostly tourists, and they don't care. They touch you, they shove you. So it's like, you have to be careful. I don't know what's gonna happen next year. No, because they think because time is passing. It's okay. Everything is good. But that's not the point. So yeah, I see the pictures, and I see a lot of people. And I've always even be, it was funny how people brought babies that couldn't even hold their heads up. Like you to relax. You ever seen the urine line and you see the parents that have the baby? And they're so real? Well, I didn't see a lot of babies. I saw a couple, but not a lot of. Actually, I didn't see a lot of kids that much. So I always find it weird when people bring their newborns to Disney. I don't know if it's just me, but I find it weird. Well, I took my son out when he was two weeks to target. That was the first time because I needed to go out. And then yeah, but not to Disney, not to Disney, but to the supermarket is sometimes I'm like, why are you excited? Given this ha, he will die? Or I'm thinking you don't know who everyone else has been like this? You know, they're all from all over the world because Disney brings everyone from the sea. So hi. The next question I have for you is how do you curate your content on Instagram? Like what inspires you? Do you have anything that you think that inspires you? With your so for me right now? I think I found my niche, I would say because before I wanted to be like a Disney girl, and I don't think I'm a Disney girl now. You know, like I tried. I was trying to figure out who I who I was as a blogger and Instagram or whatever. And I think my brand is spooky stuff like cute. Spooky. I will call myself quirky. Spooky. So I think I like Halloween a lot, as you can see. And I were like, Oh, yeah. So I'm like, I'm a golf, I would say even though I look happy and think I can do it. But I'm still like, the music that I listen and the way that I feel I would say. So I think that that's what I'm going for right now. I'm just going with this neat bytes and Halloween vibes and mental health. Like I said, I always put a little bit of mental health in his in letting people know what's going on in the day. So that kind of that's what I'm doing. Like, if you see my page, you will see like pose, pose, pose. And then you will see like quotes, about like little quotes that will that will make you think and if you look at the caption, you will see a little more on that. But right now I have one that is super famous kind of because I have like 1000s of shares on that one. And itself. It says if you if you feel something, you know, if you feel the words of an attack, you should check your privilege. You know, if the truth feels like an attack, you should check your privilege. And this is one of the most famous quotes that I have in my page right now. But it's superficial if you think about it, but then if you will, superficial is always the truth. But when you really, really think about it, there's so many things that we and this is not only white people, which goes a lot with white privilege, but also talks about us as straight people the privilege that we have over over LGBT or even people is great size, like me that have privilege over people that are plus size, and are things that we're not seeing and we think Oh no, that doesn't apply to me. There's a lot of things that apply to us that we have to work on like it when in my podcast I talk about about fatphobia And it's something that I used to do and think a lot, you know, because I was created, you know that the way that I was phrased it was like thinking that people are, you know, like less than you because they're fat, and we can laugh at them and bully them and whatever. And because we like I have this look, you know, like all learn a lot of behaviors. Now, I think I feel more comfortable helping that community and trying to destroy fat phobia first in me inside me, and then others too, even though I'm not from that community, and that's what we need to do, like, take all the causes and help everybody. Yeah, that's true. I was always born fat. And for me, I had, I never had fat phobia because I was fat. But my parents, I felt like had fat phobia, even though I've always been big. So it's always been like a mental struggle in my head, trying to feel like I'm enough, because my parents don't even think I'm enough, because I'm fat. So that's what I try to do when I do my events, as always empower women. So because even your own family, at least in my case, that would treats me that way. That makes sense. Yeah, but what you said at the beginning that you didn't have fat phobia, because you were fat. That's not always the case. There's a lot of people that are fat that still have fat phobia, you know, because the world teach you that you're wrong, like something is wrong with you. In fat. Yeah. So it's like the wordiness of the of the person is equals to whatever the society wants to think. So that's, that's another topic right there that I will talk about. And in my, like, my co hosts in my podcast, we talk a lot about that, because she, she is a bad woman. And she's like, and super, super advocate on that. And I love that word together in that podcast, because we're so different in everything, and we fight a lot about our ideals, but I know she learns from me and, and I learned a lot from her too, and being exposed that expose that awareness makes you a better person. I think so. All right. So I'm gonna make sure everyone follow her podcast, yo, soy BMI here, you're on all podcasting platforms. And your Instagram is bachik. Parents, I always want to say by magic Paradis. aratus. But you guys know, I've also put it in the description down below. And Nikki, do you have any? Yes, for me? I do. Yes, it's my moment now. Where's my mic? I want one of those big mics too. So I was wondering, you know, because you, I'm, I'm a podcast listener, I'm a podcaster. But I'm a podcast listener, you were one of my top podcasts this year. You know that because I tagged you. I love it. And this is my favorite part when people ask you stuff. So I'm about your pin up. I was super excited, because I didn't know you had this kind of groups like that, you know? And I didn't know you started this. But I heard in the episodes that you were talking about why you created them. Because you felt like you were the only one doing that. And I wanted to ask you, if you feel that now. You're included in that community that now you have a way, you know, like a place to go. If it's better, if it's worth it, let's say is it worth it when all that is done, I would say it's worth it. I feel like the community that I've built is grown into something more than me. Because the people that have gotten involved, I've also done their own events, even being just part of pinsa, Florida, also pinups at the zoo, I have to put my trust in people to put on the events because I don't live in these locations. But it's like a piece of me that's there because they always reach out. Or it just feels more than me, if that makes sense. And the only time is if I leave the bubble of something that has been connected to me that I don't belong still. But I feel like that's all kind of thing, since I've always felt like I was the outsider. Um, but when it comes to anything that has to do with any of the people that I've met or associated with the groups or the car scenes that I've associated with myself with opportunities that I've had It's totally different than when I go to a rockabilly weekend or that I know nobody. And but I think it's normal. When you go somewhere new, you feel like an outsider. Does that answer your question? Yeah, yeah. So yeah, I think that's the way that everybody see it. Like, I felt that way, when I wanted to include myself in things and you still feel like, Oh, I don't belong. And it's like, we don't belong with me. We don't belong in the, in the regular world. We're like, special. I think you're special and you're magical, cool. People are afraid of that. I know, people have told you stuff when you're like a regular life in the supermarket and people will be like, Is there a way? Why do you have yellow hair? Why do you dress like this? You know, the number one thing I get is that, um, since I always wear poofy skirts crinoline. Um, and I always wear a corset. So like, you know, I'm bigger, but I have like little waist and a poof, I always get called little bit. Always Little Bo Peep. And I mean, I like it. Because I think when I think a Little Bo Peep, I think is cute. So I take it as a compliment, or when little girls like partials think I'm a princess. Um, but that's I feel like they could be a princess too. And that's what I tell them just to address how you like it. Whatever makes you happy. Sometimes it's sad, though, people will call me many mouse's though. And it's like, Yeah, but it's not that I use the ears outside because I never use my ears in regular life. But people are like, Oh, man, you're this knee or whatever. Like, I feel sometimes that is like, not a compliment, like an insult. Like, some people write you, I'm like, yeah, or Oh, I see what you mean, because there are some compliments, that they sound like compliments, but they really mean it in a negative way. And I just try to ignore them. The best that I can. I'm not gonna say that I'm really good at ignoring some of them. But I really try to think of the positive and be like, Well, I'm not going to be everybody's cup of tea. Let me keep going. So because a lot of people don't like the way I dress, or some of the dresses that I make that they're too much or too am, you know, what do you call it a detailed? I didn't make this one. But I like colors, even though I used to be a mortician and I were all black all the time. Um, I always had the inner color raging to come out. Now I think you'd dress amazing it's a lot of effort to you know to dress like that all the time because it's difficult to find clothes like that and regular store, too. So I commend you for that I want it to be and that's why you're you could be such a pinup girl you got you got it and Oh, and I love your recent I know it's gonna be so random. But I love your recent posts of trader Sam No, it was it was like a thing. I'm like, I need to do this and I did it outside in the patio. No, I found a pin up and traders like what so some girls were like are you doing a tick tock? I'm like no, it looks like you're doing a tech talk. I'm like I'm dancing or anything I would just standing for the photo but you know I was dressed up or whatever. But yeah, I'm so happy about that. It's so weird. I loved it. I think it's because I thought pin up and going to trader Sam's dressed up and just that all happens in my head right? unrelated but imagine you whenever you want to come down. Go to one of your opinion about this. Traders sale. If I go that would be amazing. Right? Weird. Yeah. I wonder if somebody has done it like pinup style.

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Pinterest be a thing. But thank you Nikki so much. It means so much. It's such an honor to have you on this show. I know this is the second recording we've had I was gonna say I was I appreciate it and I really loved it. I learned a lot. I learned a lot about you and about topics that I really didn't have my mind open to and I really appreciate it. And next week, I have crystal from the main the theater down in South Florida. She's going to talk about her music I'm being quarantined with her own music and acting skills. So we're gonna see how being an actor in quarantine is next week. I'm excited. Me I'm so excited. You welcome. Thank you all and I hope to see you all next week.